Living Now: Then and Now

Whether you’re a first time reader or not, welcome. This post has been a long time coming.

Living the Before started off focused on how I could/should live my life in the moment and not wait to lose the weight to do things.

That somehow led to a series about things that I won’t miss once I lost the weight – looking back it seems a bit counterproductive, but hey… after years, that turned into me learning that I needed to love myself first, which turned into living now.

That being said, I’m Kelly. If you’d like to know random facts about me – here you go 🙂

Living The Beginning

Weighing in at 250+ pounds was something I never thought I would do mainly because I told myself when I saw 200 that it was going no higher. It’s been a long, in somewhat short time span, that I have lost close to 60 pounds. I did not do it with strict diets or running long distances – it all started when I realized that I needed to come first.

There is so much that I want to dive into, but I want to take this step by step with you.

I want to start at the beginning: weight gain. Let’s get caught up, briefly.

January 2004 – Car accident that changed our lives
Approx. 150 pounds

Jeff and I got into a car accident and I messed up my knees when I slammed on the brakes and so after that my knees hurt, along with my back and neck, which are current injuries I deal with daily. Due to not being able to walk a lot and learning about a man passing away from the accident, I went into a depressive, binge-eating state that lasted for years.

November 2009 – Joined Weight Watchers

I was a member of Weight Watchers for a few years on and off and it did work for me, but it wasn’t something that I ever really stuck with. This trend lasted for a while – I was counting calories and doing what I thought I needed to do, but between Weight Watchers, My Fitness Pal, Spark People, and all the other tracking systems, I burnt out – over and over and over again.

March 2012 – Highest weight
252.6 pounds

From what I remember, I was pretty happy overall – not with my weight, but I was dealing with some things internally and thought I was doing okay.

I was walking a lot during this time and enjoying time out with friends – eating and drinking out quite a bit. We traveled to NYC that year and I remember feeling very uncomfortable on the plane.

January 2013 – Therapy

When I realized what all was going on in my head, I decided to see a therapist. That only last a few months as she moved away…

October 2014 – Stopped going to OA
240 pounds

I spent a few months trying out some OA (Overeaters Anonymous) meetings. In the end, they were not my thing and I’m still very happy that I moved on when I did.

May 2015 – Travel back from two week Panama Canal cruise
230 pounds

When we got back from our biggest trip ever – length wise and the fact that it was for Jeff’s work – I went into a major depressive state. I’m not 100% sure I could peg down what lead me down that path, but I had a few very rough months.

I ended up going to another therapist and when I realized that she was quite crap and had double booked me and someone else, I immediately stopped going (after I had it out with her in the office.) I am grateful that I had someone to speak with about what was going on in my head, but damn, can a girl get a break? Or just a decent therapist that doesn’t check their phone during the sessions?

January 2016 – Mindset change
231.8 pounds

I decided that 2016 was the year that I was going to create – videos, photos, puzzles, LEGO, coloring. Once I realized how much I needed to fix my mindset, I learned that I needed to create a whole new thought pattern about myself.

January 2017 – Now
192 pounds

It’s been a long battle with my weight, but most importantly it’s been an even longer and even more difficult mental battle that I continue to fight to this day.

When it comes to weight loss, I definitely do not have the secret key to unlock it all, nor am I a doctor or certified in anything, but I do want to share how I’ve made it this far. Weight loss does not need to be about a super restrictive diet, running lots of miles, or anything like that. You have to make it work for you and that’s what I’m doing – learning to live each day, one step/downward dog at a time 🙂

6 thoughts on “Living Now: Then and Now

  1. Heck yes girl!!! Keep rocking it! (life, the weight is what it is). i can feel those depressive states, they aren’t fun, but good for you for pushing past them!

    • Thank you so much! Our daily intentions have been a big help these last couple of months. even if they are the same over and over and over *and over* again 😉

  2. Kelly, I’m so proud of you! You look great, and though I know that sounds like a “surface” thing, your happiness shines through your smile, and that’s a huge thing.

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