Yelling At Myself

Ever since Katy posted her video about avoiding the comparison trap, it’s had me thinking. It hasn’t necessarily been in the since of “this person is better than me” or “I wish I could run as fast as that person”, it’s been…

…these people have motivation and I have none.

…I wish I got up off the couch more and had fun adventures.

…why do we always just go out to eat as a way of spending time together?

I read all these different blogs and see

…everyone out enjoying their city (Allie, Ashley & Theodora)

…new moms who work full time, take care of their kid(s) and are kicking butt when it comes working out (Callie, Caitlin, Gina & Katy)

…people who are strictly dedicated to nutrition/fitness/health (Lindsay, Carissa & Gina, again)

(Is that enough lists for you?)

So yeah, the comparison trap is there for me. Totally.

I feel like I have good intentions to start exercising more and getting 10,000 steps in a day. The blogs that I mentioned above motivate me. And then I just keep reading blogs or I start looking for work or I just sit at the computer and I never get off the couch.

I was doing quite well for a while and then after 3-4 weeks that all feel through. I was tracking all my food around the same time that fell aside.

The worst part? When I DO have work to do (a couple days a week) I work from home, yet I let the house get out of control and then from there all my motivation is gone.

So, I’m at a point (again) that my motivation has gone out the window.

While Jeff works at home too, he actually stays pretty busy throughout the day (and night), so I kind of feel like it’s on me to keep up with the house and yet here I sit wondering where to start.

The laundry is piling up, in multiple rooms of the house. Clean and dirty.

The dishes need to be pulled out of the dishwasher. And new ones put in.

All three couches have crap all over them. Including laundry.

Do I need to go on? Nope, I’m sure you get it. Thankfully I have a pretty clear couple of days on the calendar so my goal is to get the house in order so we can then get the garage in order, which in turn leads me to having my treadmill back.

Are you searching to find a connection for these two things – health and home? Well, it seems like for me as soon as my home gets out of control I give up on the motivation for cleaning and then my health (fitness & food) motivation disappears.

I haven’t done any posts lately..no weigh ins, therapy sessions, nothing. Partly because I’ve been busy working with a local site and doing fun things with them and also because I haven’t been tracking my food, steps or anything. Life got the best of me.

Phew. Here’s to me yelling at myself, positive things only, to get myself in check!